Friday, February 20, 2009
What a letdown
I can't remember the first time I heard Last Goodbye by Jeff Buckley but I do remember that I immediately fell in love with it. It's up there in my list of favorite songs. It would be early 1995 when this song pretty much became my life's anthem. I was hopelessly in love with a girl but didn't have the guts to say anything. At that time I already knew that I was leaving for Seattle and knowing that I might leave without letting her know how I felt was killing me. I played this song so much I could hear it in the background in my dreams. The song seemed tailor made for my situation at the time: the haunting music, the hopelessness in the singer's voice, and the resignation to certain loss of the lyrics. The song affected me so much that up to this day when I hear it I get taken back to that particular time in my life.
Then I decided to watch the video on Youtube. As much as I love the song I have never actually seen the video until a few minutes ago. I honestly wish I hadn't. It just ruined the song's mystic for me. It's an unimaginative generic 90's grunge-wannabe video, down to the plaid flannel shirts. Talk about instantly regretting doing something.